Blessed

*Another one of those personal posts that I share because I feel like its my therapy. I was reading this blog when I realised how much progress I have made in myself and I feel like when I get my blog made into keepsake books I want to remember patience and perseverance paid off!*

I have written here before about PCOS and how I felt about that - being a 20 year old relatively newly wed discovering having children might require medical assistance, dealing with my own personal feelings about all of that side of things. But really just how I felt complete and incomplete at exactly the same time.

Andy and I are made for us, by whatever force that is - God, Spiritual or fate. Whatever, Andy and I are just custom made for each other.

So when I fell pregnant in January and we started this whole new journey together I wasn't sure how to feel. Sounds crazy because having children was always on the cards for us, having children young was also very likely to be on the cards for us seen as we were married at 19. But this bit was supposed to be difficult, I varied between feeling scared and completely in awe of being pregnant.

Throughout my pregnancy I have talked about feeling ungrateful for this blessing I am carrying because its hard work. It is still hard work and I don't believe I will look back on my pregnancy with completely rose tinted glasses and say I loved it, but I love our child and that's what has made me realise as hard as it has been at times, I would do it all over again. I would change things, I would change my attitude towards certain aspects (!!) but when we finally meet our baby I know I would do it all over again and more if that was necessary.

How do I not feel completely overwhelmed by that?! I don't know, this acceptance just sits better than the guilt I have felt. Past tense now thank fully. It was a part of the process for me. Now I am ready to share so much more with Andy and experience a whole new aspect of our relationship and personalities. I am excited for christmas as a family of three, I am excited just to be a family of three! I know that whatever is coming its how it should be and I am so, so happy to be at this stage in my life.

Diet Plans for PCOS

There are many diet plans for PCOS out there, however, the majority of advice I have received since being diagnosed has been to just eat as healthy as possible. PCOS is not life threatening however it is very distressing until managed. I have been told that as I don't want children tomorrow, I need to focusing on loosing weight and trying to self manage my symptoms. Some of my symptoms are too personal for me to discuss at the moment. Therefore, I am sharing my experiences and working through my own emotions by writing about them.

Upon research though, I have found that Low GI diet plans and High protein plans have supported research suggesting that they are the most efficient way of loosing weight when the body has a resistance to breaking down insulin. The priority for any diet is to stick with foods that don't affect the blood sugar.

All of these insights are things that I have found and experienced. However, I am not medically trained and cannot give fail safe advise. Speak to your doctor before undertaking any diet.

I have also found that anyway you can incorporate exercise into your day will really help. I have started walking at least 2 miles a day with a dance class once a week.

My biggest piece of experience that I would like to share so far, is that you need to talk about it. If you want to talk with people about it, go for it. If you can only post online anonymously then thats another way of dealing with it. Verity the charity - in the UK has some great information and the USA sites have some good recipes.

PCOS Diet day 1

Dieting day 1

Breakfast: Scrambled Eggs
Lunch: Cooked ham and sweet cherry tomatos - 2 good handfuls
Dinner: White fish stir fry
Snack: 8 Brazil nuts, 4 apricots

2L's of water with at least 6 cups of decaf tea!!

Today I have felt quite positive because I feel like I am making a positive change to our future! I know it sounds silly but I really feel good about dieting this time. I am also using the boots laser system to try and tame my other symptom! But its ok, I am working towards how I want to be. If you can't have everything, just have control!!

Dieting with PCOS

I was diagnosed with PCOS about 2 months ago, this is something that I am ok with. At this moment in time I am ok with it.
Mr HB has been an absolute star because he has this mans viewpoint where he is very practical and pragmatic, he tends to bring me down to earth.

So I have started to think about the future and we have been talking quite a lot about what we actually want. We are about to complete on a 4 bedroom house because we know we want children, we know that the house is somewhere we can see ourselves growing our own little family. This got me thinking about how I could help our situation and potentially avoid some of the heartache associated with Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome.

This has therefore made me look at my weight, I have a BMI of 29 so I am deemed overweight, by about 2 and a half stone. Mr HB and I feel that we probably wont think seriously about starting a family until I have finished studying. I only have a year left but the mister finishes his apprenticeship in two and we know that money will be a lot easier then so it seems to make sense that we wait about 2 years until we start trying.
Which has given me a time scale. I want to loose the weight before we start trying and I know that the doctors will take us more seriously once we are deemed 'healthy'. We will also be older, at the moment we aren't taken seriously very often because getting married at 19 isn't in vogue!!

To sum up the point, I will be posting about my progress and the type of food I will be eating. I will be following the The Harcombe Diet, I did this diet just before christmas and I had lost about half a stone - then christmas kicked in and I lost the plot!!!

My aim is to find dinners we can both enjoy but that are helpful to my waist!!! I am hoping to do some before and pictures but I need to be brave for that. I will also take progress pictures to make sure I remember and stay motivated.